(Verse 1)
I wake up at the crack of dawn, pet my dog and pack a bong
Living life so nonchalant, carefree, relaxed, and calm
Even though we’re living in a modern Babylon
Filled with all the good intentioned thoughts we never act upon
That’s when disaster comes, goose bumps with gasping lungs
Tear ducts with rapid floods, dear ones that passed too young
I wasn’t ready cause I need him too much
He’s like a brother to me so that’s why I treat him as such
This life’s a dead end with no definable answer
My dog’s my best friend and now he’s dying of cancer
I wanna speak my mind but I’m denying the chance to
And every time I raise a question I’m reminded the answer
Incurable, malignant, they say it’s genetic
Splenic Hemangiosarcoma and they say that it’s spreading
Watch him sleep up on the couch as I prayed for his presence
Scared to leave his side now cause I’m afraid I’ll regret it
(Chorus)
So sudden and unexpected so what’s the cause?
I need to lean on a shoulder I haven’t dealt with Loss
I love my family and thankful for your help/support
This is an unfamiliar pain I haven’t felt before
You’re too fun to be sick, Now you’re gonna make me cry
You’re too young to leave us, I don’t wanna say goodbye
Where am I going? I don’t know what I’m doing
I don’t know what I’m pursuing, I just know that I’m losing
(Verse 2)
God take, God give, God giveth the a quest
To accept what can’t change one minute to the next
I swear I’ll never forget that visit to the vet
Living with regret after listening to what she said
Sympathetically informed of the unfortunate lab tests
Talking as if he was already gone in the past tense
Trying not to cry as I’m catching to gasp breaths
Just at the thought of him passing, these might be his last steps
Sorry optimism I got nothing left to say to you
Since he’s struggling, my suffering’s interchangeable
I feel like giving up, I’ll recover when I’m able to
Like how are you supposed to fill the void of irreplaceable?
This emptiness’ll take some time to get used to
But glad I got you in that last vid up on Youtube
Can’t make a poem that’ll help cope when I lose you
I feel alone this is a new low that I’ve stooped too
(Chorus)
So sudden and unexpected so what’s the cause?
I need to lean on a shoulder I haven’t dealt with Loss
I love my family and thankful for your help/support
This is an unfamiliar pain I haven’t felt before
You’re too fun to be sick, Now you’re gonna make me cry
You’re too young to leave us, I don’t wanna say goodbye
Where am I going? I don’t know what I’m doing
I don’t know what I’m pursuing, I just know that I’m losing
(Verse 3)
Good intentions arisen led to a dreadful decision
Three consecutive visits to get a second opinion
False hope that was given to take pressures off our minds
For more time before your inevitable demise
Spending your last days running to lick Kristen
Tail wagging, tongue flapping, bucket list living
Table food feeding with my phone on silent
Now it’s chicken and steak season on the sirloin diet
Pushed our luck, punctured blood, cancer cellular bleeding
Heart and lungs giving up with irregular breathing
So we sat starred, sad scared, all at his presence
As we all shared a connection of a common affection
Need a way to buy time, ease the pain in my mind
Seasons change, time flies, wish he gave 9 lives
Our best friend you’ll in our hearts live forever
Cause you brought us all together, now we’re stronger than ever
(Chorus)
So sudden and unexpected to see you gone
I need to be a supportive shoulder to lean upon
I love my family and friends and I’m thankful for you all
You kept me strong and helped me gain when I dealt with Loss
So Rest In Peace to the deceased up on the other side
The only thing that’s guaranteed is that we all gon’ die
To heaven I’m going, I know what I’m doing
Now I know what I’m pursuing cause I know that we’re losing
Longtime Style P collaborator Fortes serves up instrumental versions of eight of his productions for the New York rapper. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 22, 2020
